Superpower

I’m sometimes scared of what I have the power to destroy;

Peering at the porcelains that surround me, follow me;

It astounds me to think that they’ve even survived this long;

You see, it’s because of this super power

Oh what a super power, you're probably familiar with it;

No, I can’t leap over buildings in one bound,

My power knows no limit for leaping

I can’t breathe underwater;

But have an uncanny ability to make people feel suffocated;

I don’t have penetrating x-ray vision, but really;

Who wants to see through walls when you can pierce into others;

And peel away their securities like a careful surgeon until;

All that’s left are soft, tender, and vulnerable fears.

If I could stop there, I would be happy, I could move on;

But I don’t, I can’t, and it’s this super power, this curse;

Which doesn’t allow me let go once I smell blood;

The power kicks in, and I’m in autopilot,

I kick and scratch and yell, and don’t stop, I can’t stop;

Not until what’s left before me are just shards of what once was.

Oh what a power…what a power…

Where to begin

So the main objective of this blog had been to write about and critique novels that I had read. As anyone who's followed it for a while can tell, I've severely digressed. So, I'm going to make an effort to get back to the essence of this blog, to discuss two novels that I recently read. I will simply use my recollection of the novels and their content, instead of actually just stepping over to my book case and flipping to the passage of interest (sorry, I've been cursed with this adamant and zealous lethargy) To start with I'll discuss my thoughts and impressions (i'm very impressionable, mind you) about Richard Yates Revolutionary Road and then proceed to Dick's Ubik, and possibly conclude (if my lethargy permits) with some thoughts on the new film Juno.

Revolutonary RD

The story of the dysfunctional suburban family in an oddly overwhelming normal setting. This novel spoke out to me more than most in a long time. The themes that are brought up, turned over and examined, are full of impact. The love, the true love, between two people, and what that includes. The choices we make in life and how we stagnate in them, afraid to even reach out for something better. The oppressive qualities of a society obsessed with tidiness, mediocrity, and normalcy. It becomes too much for the main characters to take, forcing them into stinking lashes that hurt each other and themselves only to...to what? Scream passionately that we are not like "those next door," we have a life, a passion, an intelligence which they can not possibly possess. oh what a tortuous mentality. oh the pain of reality when we realize that mistakes of our own life are due in most part to our own self deception, our own suffocating need to hope that, if we only wanted to, we could always do better.

There was so much self delusion in this novel, and yet, it was so richly human, it cut deep when the reader realized, how far am I from being like the husband (or the wife)? ....not that far.

I can't really continue to the next novel, let's just leave it at this for now, the lethargy has won yet another bout. Damn you, laziness, damn you.

Circus Act

Come one, come all,

To the greatest show around.

Bring everyone that can be found,

For this show is sure to enthrall.

Feast your eyes on that cannon,

Inside’s a man, like you, like me,

Yet-and here’s the kicker-he does not see.

In all ideas pure, and of instincts none.

Prepare yourselves, do not be startled,

he was chosen by the role of dice,

to be shot out of our most impressive device,

Initially, everything’s surely to get rattled.

KABOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At first everything was loud, rasping, and dark

I heard inside me a primitive wailing and screaming,

But when I finally opened my eyes, I saw before me streaming,

All of the earth, cold and stark.

I wept for a hand, a gesture, a sign

To indicate why I was placed in this odd journey,

With a trajectory I couldn’t follow, I flew calmly over many,

Many others, all following directions without design.

I tried to reason what it could all be about,

That I was put there to fly, to perchance feel absolute free will,

But my inability to land-despite my great desire-made that idea spill,

Into broken vessels, leaving me with nothing but the urge to shout.

If not that then what?-Was I marked to be with the doomed?

The inevitable death waiting for me at the end of my gentle flight,

Is that all I have to look forward to?-is there no way to fight?

I strain my eyes to see what- if anything-ahead loomed.

I build, erect, and conjure elaborate endings,

Outcomes which console and assuage my fear,

But it’s an illusory comfort, pushing my smile into a sardonic smear,

For I sense an arbitrariness, a triviality in my own flight’s tidings.

Yet, I cannot relinquish that hope, that expectation,

Of life, of survival, of a safe descent onto soft, embracing fields,

For I see it approaching, marking the end of my trip and all that that yields,

I close my eyes in the face of such an uncertain culmination.